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"Its Not Curable, I'm Sorry, I Cant Make It Go Away"

Friends & Family I am sadly writing this to all of you to let you know that I have cancer. Yep, SUCKS! If you know me, you know I am special. That wacky loud over the top hyper crazy do anything probably been on your nerves special.
Well now I am even more special.
It’s Name Is: Poorly Differentiated Small Cell Neuroendocrine Carcinoma of the Pancreas. For short: Small Cell Carcinoma of Pancreas (SCCP) It’s Story: Small-Cell Carcinoma of the Pancreas is a rare and aggressive tumor with a high metastasis rate. Only 1% of all primary pancreatic neoplasms are small-cell carcinomas and 4% of all small-cell carcinomas have an extra-pulmonary origin. In a review of all published cases of SCCP, 91% were metastatic at the time of initial diagnosis, (which is also the speed of which it’s spreading thru my body) it is a very rare entity, accounting for approximately 1000 new cases each year in the U.S., or for 0.1-0.4% of all malignancies. Involvement of the pancreas has only been described in a few case reports (7-9). It typically affects elderly men, with a mean age of 63 years, but cases as young as 24 years have been reported (4-6). Long-term survival in patients with SCCP is poor, with a median survival of 3 months, to a year.
So that is my news. It was very hard for me to post this. It was very hard to tell Friends & Family. This has been a very difficult reality to accept and I am battling to live everyday.
It has just been since May my first symptoms even occurred and today at only 39 years old I am declared disabled. I am no longer the Kimberley I or you know. I am already very sick and have began my battle of just surviving already. I hope to be given the opportunity to go to Nashville for a Clinical Trial to help Oncologist educate themselves on this rare cancer and find a better treatment to fight it, it is my best hope for a longer life & the next person who sadly is diagnosed. I am going to battle this, I am a fighter, however it will win. I’m also a single mom who is paycheck to paycheck getting by, & without any life insurance. This GoFundMe account started for Myself and My Beautiful Son Beckham is very much needed & appreciated. I know the feeling of not being able to afford to give, all I ask is that you Please Pass It Along to all your FB, Twitter & Email Friends, let them know you know me & Please Thank Them. I have awesome friends around the entire US & over seas I am depending on.
I am sorry that this is the news I have but it is time I let you all know. Please send Good Vibes & Positive Words. I need all the happy positive thoughts you have.
Parents spend more 1on1 time with your children, really listen to them. Hug your loved ones tighter, say I love you more often, visit that friend this week, turn the music up loud and dance, enjoy your life with new adventures & take that chance you have been afraid of…

It sounds like you have already given up.
well You Can’t Just Give Up. I have stage 4 NHL. and when I was given the diagnosis. I just turned it all over to God. A lot of people think you have to go to a building to get anything from God or believe in him. I don’t. i do believe in him and you can call it what ever you want but believing and accepting his healing does help. Every day when i woke up i just thanked him for giving me another day, and with the care that I received and allowing God to take over my health care, it is working. I am now cancer free, I never got burned from the daily radiation treatment, and never lost any hair from the Chemo, and through out the entire time I never gave up. You need to do the same . You don,t know me but I feel that I know you and am going to include you in my daily prayers. Please Please Please, Don’t give up. with the Info that you can get here and what info Thomas has given you. and Just believing in Yourself, You can Beat it. There are People everyday that believe and Beat Cancer. You can do it, I believe you can do it, now you need to believe in your self. YOU CAN MAKE IT GO AWAY KIMBERLY. I know you can. It’s all up to you. If you need help let me know. I will help you all I can. leave me a msg and let me know. L.L.H. Charlie.

  • Mon Jan 11, 2016

You are rite CANCER SUCKS and F~CANCER I agree ! I was diagnosed with stage 3 melanoma this is my 3rd time over 14 years for this to happen this time it made it inside . I tried to get in trial was turned down because of history and age I’m 59 was 57 at time of this diagnosis and drug was on verge of being FDA approved it was FDA approved 5 months after I received the best option at my time which had only a 20% or less success ratio .Well I was blessed as my DR put it and tumor went from 29cm to 14cm he calls me his miracle man which in this day in time of people thinking they need to be PC ! that’s NOT IN MY VOCABULARY .It has stayed that size for almost 2 years get ct every 4 months if grows which is good chance go to plan B OR C There are a lot of good trials for you at TN ONOCOLOGY at centennial in Nashville tn .Don’t you dare do anything but FIGHT LIKE HELL !!! I hear ya on ssdi myself it sucks even though I’m lot older its tuff .I’m ole biker of 70s LOVE LIFE LEARN WHAT IT TAKES TO DO THAT FIGHT ! Kimberly you can do this . REBEL TOM AND CYNDI GAIL !!!!

  • Sun Feb 21, 2016
Hi, I'm John T E.

Dear Kimberly, I was diagnosed with 4 stage colon rectal cancer with a tumor inside of me the size of a tennis ball in November of 2014, the doctor told my wife and my family to take me home and get my affairs in order there was no chance of survival. But God and My oncologist had deferent plans. I went to my pastor and ask him to anoint and pray for me as it says in Gods Word. Well he brought this before the whole church at my agreement and ask if they wanted to take part when I looked up all I could see was a blanket of peoples head across the place just about everyone in my church family had came forward. I went through Chemo 24/7 and intensive radiation for seven weeks straight then surgery where they removed the tumor, I am now cancer free through Gods grace, He is not done with me yet. I had a spot show up in my liver back in December of 2015 went for a biopsy in January of 2016 the spot was no longer there to be found. God is still the great healer and can heal any one that comes to Him in Faith through Christ Jesus. Go to him in prayer and He will be there for you. Thanks for your post and don’t give up Give it to God.

  • Mon Feb 22, 2016
I'm Frances C L., and I'm a survivor of Kidney (Renal Cell) Cancer

Live more, laugh more, and love more on this journey. I grateful to have discovered this site today and hope my thoughts can be encouraging to you. I felt lost when I first heard the diagnoses. Through the pain, the agony, the feelings of defeat I began to focus more on others and how to bring more joy meaning their life. I stopped worrying over my ordeal and prayed for answers which helped me make decisions without wavering or worrying. I was diagnosed in December 2015, with RCC had the surgery which was the best solution for the stage the tumor was in and today I am a cancer survivor. Thanking and trusting God each day for this journey and opportunity to pray and encourage others that the journey may difficult give the best of you the you can.

  • Tue Jul 12, 2016
Hi, I'm Jill A N.

Kimberly, if you don’t already know Jesus as your lord and Savior, now is a good time to look to him and trust him with your life. He may not heal your disease but he will give you peace and comfort and best of all eternal life. I just had surgery for the 4th time. Breast cancer. I agree wholeheartedly, it sucks!

  • Tue Sep 20, 2016